This last year has been a frenzied blur of activity and new experiences. Probably two of the biggest things that happened this past year have been the birth of our 3rd baby, Ashton, on February 10th and celebrating the 1st year anniversary of Revolution Church that Josh, my husband, relaunched in September 2008.
Life with 3 kids has been challenging and rewarding. I once thought that I could have at least 6 kids, coming from a large family, now I no longer think that! Having the last two only 18 months apart has stretched me, literally and figuratively, in ways that I never imagined. I have had to become even more organized, patient and creative, while having less sleep and more little people in my life!
Josh has made some huge changes in his life over the last year. For starters he has made date night a huge priority, so NO MATTER WHAT, we have a date night each week. (Click here for more information about our last series on relationships.) This has made huge deposits into our relationship when we have needed it most. He has also been training for a half marathon and has made getting healthy a big priority in his life and in our family’s life, so he has lost a significant amount of weight. It is incredible to watch someone close to you, not only transform before your eyes, but take something so seriously that they actually do something about it. Complaining about something is really easy, but doing something about it takes a lot of courage. So; hat’s off to Josh.
One of the things that has hit me the most about last year are the internal shifts that have happened in my life revolving around relationships. Previously, I used to go to church, volunteer at church, attend a mom’s group at church, lead a small group for church, and go to a Bible study in church. I was spending ALL of my time with people who know Jesus, or who are aquainted with or pursuing Him. I think that I needed that for a season, but things have changed for me now, I am still involved in church and use my time, gifts and talents to honor God, but I am spending much less time with women and people who already are invested in the Kingdom. I intentionally have made a decision to reach out to those who are close to me, who don’t know God, so that I can make a difference in their eternities. That means that some of my relationships with people I already know have taken a bit of a back seat, but in ways that I am not even able to express, I am more filled because I am living my life not just for myself now.
I have been able to reach out to a handful of families in my neighborhood in extremely practical ways; blessing two families with a few meals after the birth of their second child, passing off some extra chocolate cake to the teenagers down the street, lending and borrowing things as a way to connect and share resources, and most of all trying to be the Light that God calls us to. This past week at Revolution Church, Josh asked us as a congregation to list 3 people who we could intentionally invest in and invite to church; a year ago, I would not have anyone to write on that card, but it made me excited that last Saturday night, I had to decide and think through who of my non-christian friends or acquaintances I would be investing and inviting.
I know that this may not sound like much, but for me, it has been a long journey. Getting to a place where I can hold loosely to some of the relationships that I want to cling to, so that I can spend more time with people who have a greater eternal need. I don’t want to come across all holy, because if you know me, you know that I am a far cry from perfect or even good for that matter. But God has started to change my heart toward the city of Tucson… and this is only becoming clear through Revolution’s study of Nehemiah. A book about a man who’s heart was changed by God for the city of his ancestors. I pray that my heart too, will be broken for the people who are swimming in the hurt, self-loathing, and anger that God has graciously pulled and is pulling me from.
Tomorrow I will post my “Sunday” Morning review about the first sermon from our new series; Building a City Within the City, a study on the book of Nehemiah.
Here’s to God changing your heart to be more like his and a resolution to blog with a little more regularity! 😉